These Two

EVERYTGING I do I do for these two.   My purpose in life has always been the same thing, to be a mommy.  There is no other honor I would  rather have in my entire life.   No other privilege more worthy than this one.  There is no amount of money, fame or fortune that could replace the awesomeness of being mommy to these two.  They are my inspiration, my Hope and my Joy.  Not a day goes by that I don’t look into the wondrous eyes and see the reflection of unconditional love.  I sit is awe at thei
r greatness, purity, kindness, compassion, innocence, and love that they naturally and effortlessly pour out to those around them.  They show me and teach me so much.   

One of the biggest lessons or ideas that they have taught me about is the unconditional Love of Christ.  My heart wells up with so much love when I see my girls do kind things for each other.   My heart wells up with so much pride when I see them stick their necks out for each other even in the midst of an argument with each other because mommy tries to help out with clearing things up but they just want to be sure that each other is being treated fairly.   I am reminded daily, sometimes hourly and even more so sometimes by the minute (through these two) that Christ himself feels the same way about us, His Children.   That the things that matter to Him is our kindness and love towards each other even when we don’t agree with what each other are saying.  Being able to lay down our own selfish desires and the need to be right and look to the person across from us because we love them because they are a person with feelings, hopes and dreams and show them love. 

There is so much going on in this world.   So many things that feel so out of control and crazy.  Things that we can’t fix or control because they are just out of our grasp BUT one thing that we can control is ourselves.   We can control our responses, the way we treat others.   We can choose to truly stop and listen to what people are saying.   We can learn to understand each other.   Understanding doesn’t mean that you have to agree, understanding is just showing someone compassion for the situation they are currently in.   LOVE and KINDNESS are how we can change this world.   I am ready to step up to the plate.   I am ready to really listen.   I am ready to make a difference by “killing the evil” in this world with kindness and love.   Are you???   Lets make a difference starting today, one person at a time.   

A Road in the Wilderness

“Behold, I will do a new thing, Now it shall spring forth; Shall you not know it? I will even make a road in the wilderness And rivers in the desert.”

‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭43:19‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

I read this scripture on New Year Day and it spoke volumes to me.   The part that caught my attention was “I will make a road in the wilderness and rivers in the desert”.   Wow!!   

Usually when you are in the wilderness there is a good chance of getting lost because there is no clear path but here God says he will make a road(path) for you to follow in the wilderness.  When you are in the desert you are often thirsty and hot.  Water is  not “around every corner”.   God says that He will make a river in the desert.   I feel like this scripture is once again reminding me that their is always Hope!  With God there is always a way.   He can and will supply you with what you need in every situation in your life.  Whether it be courage, strength, hope, a clear road (path) or a river to quench your thirst.  As I am writing this I feel like this scripture can encourage me (and perhaps others) that God makes a way in every area of my life, as a wife, a mother, a daughter, a sister, a friend or a stranger.   

Jonathan, the girls and I have been incredibly blessed with our recent move to Washington.  The hardest part about moving for me was leaving a place were I knew lots of people and had many dear friends who were like family and moving somewhere were I knew only one family.   I miss those close relationships with those people and their families.  But I read this scripture and I am reminded that God will make a path.  He will make a way.   Sometimes His timing looks different than ours.  Somethings we have other things to learn about our lives and ourselves as we travel down those paths that He places before us.  I am learning to be grateful for these paths (or some people call them seasons) that I walk (sometimes crawl, skip, run or am carried) through.   They not only teach me a lot about who I am.  They also teach me a lot about who others are in my life.  Most importantly they teach me about who God is.  

One of the things I have learned along the way is that God Will never leave nor forsake me.  (Hebrews 13:5)  No matter what is going on in my life.  No matter how big or how small I am never ever alone.  He is right there by my side.  There is nothing to fear because He has overcome it all.  In the mist of the biggest storms in my life, He has ALWAYS shown Himself true to me.   He has always shown me love and compassion.  He has always been generous with giving me peace.  He is very real to me.   

He has been made even more real to me over the last three years.   I understand that some people don’t understand how I can remain so faithful to God when He hasn’t healed my physical body (YET!).   He has done so much more.   He has healed my mental self and also my spiritual self.   Honestly, i feel richer just knowing that i can find joy in a life that feels so complicated sometimes.  I would take that over having a healthy body but no joy.  He has placed a path before me that has allowed me to remain an active part of my girls lives.   He has healed my body 90% more than it was three years ago.  He has placed doctors in my path that have helped this happen.  He has given me a support system of Family and friends that have helped carry me through all of the “ups and downs”.   He has remained faithful.  Sometimes the path we travel down doesn’t look ANYTHING like what we thought it would (hahaha, can any of us honestly say that we are exactly were we thought we would be) but what I can say with confidence is that the road is bearable and even wonderful when you allow the Lord to guide you, mold you and change you.